Friday, July 24, 2015

My Story

Happy Friday Everyone! :)
**Vulnerable Post Alert** 
Let's do a little Flash Back Friday. I share my own story for my new followers, or even my current followers that don't know about my background every once in a while. I went from a frail, lost, insecure girl, in terrible relationships with an eating disorder that ran her life, to a strong Entrepreneur Girl Boss running her own health and fitness business and engaged to the man of her dreams. My struggles made me the person I am today, and every aspect of them could have an impact on someone.
Those who know me, know that I've always been on the thinner side, naturally I'm 5'10, so my build tends to be long and lanky. What many people don't always understand is skinny isn't always healthy. In high school, I played high level volleyball and ate literally whatever I wanted without thinking twice about what I was putting into my body. Thinking back now, I'm disgusted and lucky to not have clogged arteries, but nevertheless, I was the typical teenager that ate fast food all the time. I had never been comfortable in my own skin, and through the tail end of my senior year and into my freshmen year of college, my insecurities began to spin out of control. I received a scholarship to play both indoor and beach volleyball for college. I moved to a new town for the first time being on my own, I was in a VERY controlling and emotionally abusive relationship, and I knew no one in this new town. I was way out of my comfort zone, hating my body and using the way I ate (or didn't eat) to shape myself into something I thought would bring happiness. When we had our first consultation with our strength and conditioning coach at the college, I was told that at 5'10, 120lbs and 20% body fat, that I was a "skinny fat girl". Back then I didn't have any knowledge on health and fitness, I was 18 and unstable, and health-clueless. I didn't know then that 20% body fat is COMPELTELY fine for a female, all I knew is I was a "skinny fat girl". That's when my anorexia turned into anorexia athletic, where now I was not only obsessed with my food intake (or lack there of) to achieve my "dream body" but I also became obsessed with working out which led to an EXTREME amount of over training and under eating. I began working out with my team, as required, going to my 2 practices a day, as required, then doing my own gym session after that, and running about 5 miles a day. Can we just talk about the complexity of that regimen? How harmful it was? I was literally tearing my body apart piece by piece with no way for it to heal or grow. Who cares though, right? I was getting my "dream body", that's how you do it, isn't it? In my head it was. It began to catch up with me, I was EXHAUSTED all the time, my hair was dry and brittle, my friends and family were expressing concern now more often than not.. "You're looking really thin, are you okay?" ... "I can count every bone in your sternum, when was the last time you ate something?" ... "YOU'RE TOO SKINNY". No, I'M FINE. That was always my answer. I was so defensive. It didn't matter what they said though, if I wasn't under 120lbs and a size 0, I wasn't happy. NUMBERS. SO MANY NUMEBRS.
But it was more than just the numbers; my body dismorphia was so bad, when I looked in the mirror, I would still tear myself apart even when I had withered away to 112lbs at 5'10. That Summer, I remember being in the bathroom after a workout, ALMOST feeling satisfied with how much I sweat and burned off, that my abs were starting to make an appearance. "Progress", I thought. It was about that time that the person I was dating at the time walked in, and stood behind me. "You can almost see my abs!" I had said to him, then he proceeded to pull, stretch and move my stomach "fat" (truly was skin) around, until he pulled it sideways towards my back enough that you could really see my abs. "There they are, NOW you can see them." Cue meltdown. Okay, if I could just get rid of all the fat he just pulled away...maybe I'll be pretty enough, skinny enough, muscular enough, attractive enough...enough. It was just such a vicious cycle between my own insecurities and the ongoing loss of the bits and pieces of me that he chipped away day after day as he got more controlling, possessive and mean. I spent my entire freshmen year doing this, and I will say that I was never hospitalized for my disorder, so in all honesty I didn't always LOOK like I had an issue. I was that "you're way too skinny" person, or "yeah, she's anorexic", but never the deathly scary size where I'm completely immobile and cannot function on my own. Unfortunately though, I had damaged my thyroid enough to be disagnosed with hypothyroidism. 
The Summer of my freshmen year, I received a few VERY rude awakenings from family members and very close friends that feared for my life and safety, not from my disorder (because I was FINE, remember?), but the relationship I was in. When I got the strength to stand up for myself and leave that relationship, I felt free, but so lost. I had been so broken down for so long, I had no idea who I was anymore, I had lost ME. To keep my mind of things, I channeled my energy back into fitness and my eating, but this time, I spent just as much time researching and learning. WOW. I was blown away on how much I was doing wrong. Slowly, but surely, I was able to implement the new things I'd learned, and start to change my life for the better. With lots of prayer, and a healthy relationship with fitness and food, I started my journey to recovery and health. I began to eat RIGHT and workout RIGHT, I was still obsessive, but at least it was I managed to put on 15 lbs of a nice mix of muscle and fat and was in the best shape of my life. I was enjoying the food I was eating, I was enjoying my workouts, and I was SLOWLY starting to look differently at the girl in the mirror. I was a little nicer to her. However, I was still trying to find who I was again, and not long after going back to school, I fell into a very similar relationship. You'd think I'd learn, right? But I can help them change... I can make a difference in their lives and they won't bet like that anymore.... Let me take a little side note, if there are any of you reading this that have that thought, DON'T. You are worth more than trying to put together a train wreck that can't be re-railed, I PROMISE you that. You may be able to make small changes, but in the grand scheme of things, that's not your job.
I had an opportunity to go to a conference for school, a bus ride to New Orleans, what a drive. I sat and thought about what I was doing with my life... literally, here I am borderline relapsing with my disorder, in a fixer-upper relationship, and still not ME. We made a pit stop on the way up there to pick up one more student allowed to attend this conference, I woke up when we stopped and in walks this literally Tall, Dark and Handsome (cliché, but SO true) guy with the prettiest smile, big brown eyes, and a cross necklace. What are you doing with your life Taylor, is all I could think. When was the last time you read your Bible, went to church, worked on YOU, surrounded yourself with people like that guy that just walked in. I know God gave me that moment, that Ah-Ha moment where a piece of ME came back. He used that attractive guy to get my attention, and that cross necklace as a wake up call. It was time to find me again, and get out of the mess I was living in, and start over; so I did. My life has never been the same since that bus ride with that guy.

Flash forward two and a half years... that guy ended up being the sweetest, most loving, caring, Godly, inspiring and supportive man I've ever met, and today is my fiancé. (We'll save THAT story for another time). We've been together for over two and a half years now, and to this day, I still have trouble thinking its REAL. THAT's how different it is, THAT's how amazing things are, and THAT's why trying to "fix" other people isn't worth it, when there's true, pure love out there that doesn't need fixing, just effort. Being with him has made me see just how bad my body dismorphia is, and although its not completely gone, I'm comfortable with my body, I'm comfortable in my own skin, and I'm proud of everything I've overcome because he loves the girl in that mirror that I didn't for so long, more than anything, and thinks she beautiful, just the way she is.
So here I am, almost 5 years later, 30lbs heavier from my freshmen year, engaged to the man of my dreams, and I wanted to give back to the fitness community for saving my life, I just didn't know how. I was offered the opportunity to become a coach, and despite my skepticism and worry, I took a HUGE leap of faith, and decided to start. I wouldn't change a thing! I'm now the founder of The Power House and a top coach in Team UpRoar. I'm surround by AMAZING and incredibly inspiring like minded women and together we change lives daily! I'm doing what I love FROM HOME, taking the steps towards financial freedom, and doing it with who I love and I couldn't be more blessed than with the life I've been given. :) I can't wait to continuing changing lives, and I hope that my story would help just one person in their journey :) My door is always open for any help or opportunity whether you need some advice, are looking for fitness guidance or want to join my team in changing lives :) >>  <<

Love the life you live !


Thursday, June 11, 2015

3 Day Refresh Results!!!

Down 8lbs and 13.5 inches in 3 Days!! 

As you guys saw from my previous post, I started my 3 Day Refresh on Monday! Time for a break down and review! I'm gonna be reallllll honest ;) 
So I measured the night before my refresh and the morning following the finish of it! 
My starting stats: 
I'm 5'10
Stomach- 33.5in
Bust- 30in
Glutes: 37in
Right Thigh- 22.5in
Left thigh- 22in
Left Arm: 11in
Right Arm 11in
Upper Chest: 36.5in

Day One: 
 I was all prepped for the day! The cleanse was wrapped around eating fruits, veggies, healthy fats, accompanied with Shakeology, Fresh Start Shakeology, and a Fiber Sweep Shake. Also optional was herbal tea! 
Day one I opted with my 4 Shakes, broccoli, avocado, green tea, apple, and red peppers. All portions for each type of food is given in your booklet! Exercise is to be VERY light, so your body can use its energy to heal your insides! So for day one, I hit up Cize (launches in JULY!!) for my workout. I'm not going to lie, going from splurge eating to a cleanse was culture shock for my body. I wanted to eat my arm off, almost all day. (Told you I'd be honest!) I also wanted to quit, but I stuck it out. 

Day 2: 
I prepped again, for work. I woke up with a slight headache, but I expected it. My prep looked VERY similar to the prepping above. I will say that dinner falls in its own category with special recipes in your handbook! On the left was one of the dinner options with a Barbells and Boots spin, spiralized! I spiralized 1.5 carrots and sauteed them in coconut oil with chili powder and sea salt. Still feeling fairly hungry between meals and snack, but not near as bad as the day before. Went to the gym with my fiance`, and ended up doing 43 pullups and a couple RDL's before I was SHOT. However I was not the only one doing this refresh. Many people in the company were, and I became discouraged from all they were saying, I wasn't feeling like they were. Surely I was doing something wrong. I wanted to give up and eat some popcorn chicken and french fires, or even the Spinach-Feta Chicken Sausage and Mac'n'Cheese my fiance` was eating next to me for dinner, I'm not gonna lie,but again I didn't eat all that stuff.... One. More. Day.  

Day 3: 
I slept GREAT. Woke up with no headache, and made it through the day without feelings starving.  Could I finally be doing something right? I finally was feeling the results my teammates were feeling. I'm just a late bloomer is all ;) My workout was Cize again, I can't even tell you how much fun I have doing it!! Can't wait for this program to launch for everyone to enjoy! Anyhow, last day. I was on point with my meals, and felt good. I even ended up going for a job with my puppy later... Without feeling like I was going to faint! (I'm not a cardio person... at all). Time for results..... 

I COULD NOT believe me eyes when to took my measurements and weight.... HOLY COW!! 

I'm still 5'10... but now... 
137 lbs (-8lbs)
Stomach- 27in (-6.5in)
Bust- 29in (-1 in)
Glutes: 37in 
Right Thigh- 21.5in (-1 in)
Left thigh- 21in (-1 in)
Left Arm: 11in
Right Arm 11in
Upper Chest: 32.5in (-4 in)

I'm am BLOWN AWAY by my results! I went in to this wanting to have more energy, clear my skin up, and lose some bloating, I had no idea just how much by body needed to heal! 

If you are interested in doing this for yourself, click here and we'll chat! :) 

Comment your email address BELOW for Refresh Info! :) 

Look forward to chatting! Have an awesome Thursday, Fit Fam! :) 


Monday, June 8, 2015

3 Day Refresh!

I've gotten VERY off track recently, with my nutrition, business, fitness, personal development, everything! With Monday's for me always being about new goals, my goal this Monday is to get back on track!

Here's how I'm going to do it. Today starts the first day of the 3 Day Refresh!

The 3 Day Refresh is a great way to kickstart a fitness journey, get your self back on track or just keep yourself maintained once a month! Its a series of simple nutrition and Shakeology to Refresh your body from toxins and junk :)

So today is my day one! My stats are:
I'm 5'10
Stomach- 33.5in
Bust- 30in
Glutes: 37in
Right Thigh- 22.5in
Left thigh- 22in
Left Arm: 11in
Right Arm 11in
Upper Chest: 36.5in
Hips: 33.5in

So my first meal of the day was Greenberry Shakeology with blueberries and water! :)

I'm excited to kickstart my Fit For the 4th Challenge with this! :) If you're interested in joining my Fit for the 4th Challenge, email me at ! :)

Check back here for Updates on my 3 Day Refresh! :) 


Thursday, February 12, 2015

Breakfast Macro Breakdown

Cinnamon apples oats and an peanutbutter protien shake 
✳Cinnamon apple oats : 1/2 cup of natural old fashion oats, 1 cup of chopped apple, 2 tbsp of cinnamon
❎ Cal: 233, F: 3.4g , C: 50g, P: 5.6g
✳ Peanutbutter protein shake: 1 scoop of Vanilla Protein, 1 scoop of Chocolate protein, 2 tbsp of PB2, and water.
❎ Cal: 205 , F:4g, C:20g, P:24g

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Barbells and Boots Launch!

Update: To accommodate my new creations, I've changed my brand name to Barbells and Boots!

Barbells and Boots is still run by me, but instead of just training programs and meal plans, there is a Barbells and Boots boutique with handmade scarves and accessories! :)

Website to be updated soon!

Leave your email if you are interested :)

XOXO Barbells and Boots 

Thursday, February 5, 2015

Breakfast on the Run!

If you're like me, and your clock somehow runs 10 minutes behind everyone else's resulting in the "fashionably late to everything" label tacked on to your personality, quick meals can be a live saver; especially when it's in the morning for breakfast.

Here is a super-quick breakfast your can whip up as you're running out the door. This morning I literally went down stairs, let my fur-baby outside, and while she was doing her business, I put all these ingredients in the blender pitcher, and set it next to the blender on the counter. I let her in, ran up stairs and got ready, ran back downstairs to leave for class, (conveniently our kitchen is next to the door), popped the prepped pitcher on the blender, blended it up, poured my smoothie in a cup and ran out the door. Literally took like 45 seconds!

  • Ice
  • Almond Milk
  • Vanilla Protien 
  • Frozen Blueberries and Raspberries 
  • Spinach 
  • Blend and Enjoy! 

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Clean Treat Tuesday!

Good Morning Fit Fam! Happy Tuesday! I hope you took your Monday by the horns and are crushing all the goals you set! :) 

Here is one of my favorite EASY clean treats:

Cinnamon Nutmeg Protein Mini Fruit Pies! 

❤️ 1 cup oats blended to powder
❤️ 1 cup skim milk or almond milk
❤️ 2 scoops vanilla protein
❤️ 1 tsp cinnamon
❤️ 1/2 tsp nutmeg
❤️ Blend this all together!
❤️ Pour into muffin tins
❤️ Add blueberries and raspberries and top with coconut!
❤️ Bake for 14 minutes at 350 degrees.

Soooo yummy and easy!! Enjoy ❤️

XOXO ❤️ Tay

Saturday, January 31, 2015

h2o for the Win! Spice Up Your Water!

I was chatting with one of my clients this morning, and she wasn't the biggest fan of drinking JUST water, so she asked if she could put lemons in it...Inspired blog post!

I can't explain to you how important and beneficial it is to drink the proper amount of water!! A few of the many benefits are:

  • It helps keep your body fluids in balance (say bye-bye to bloating!)
  • It helps energize your muscles (when muscle cells don't have enough water, they can't preform at their maximum potential!)
  • It helps keep your skin and hair fresh and healthy
However, if you're like me, you might not always drink enough water. At one point I was really good about getting in my 2 gallons, but nowadays, I'm not as dedicated as I should be. It normally just slips my mind honestly, not to mention I love sweet tea... But, I have found that fruit infused water is a life saver! The fruit gives the water flavor, some extra nutrients and detoxifying properties! There really isn't much to it! Just pick your fruit, slice it up and throw it in your glass, bottle or pitcher! The longer it sits, the stronger the flavor. The fruit can be used up to three days in cold water. Enjoy! :) 

Friday, January 30, 2015

Sweating... in Pink Pants

Happy Friday FitFam! 

How about those quad lines! 
Do you know what the best deterrent at the gym is? Wearing some sort of colored pants that shows every drip of sweat that comes off of your body. Yum. No one will bother you when they can see your butt sweat, just sayin'. Who cares though? You aren't there for anyone but yourself, so wear what you want; Sweat like a pig, look like a fox. Promise the sweat is worth the outcome! ;)

 Speaking of sweat, I have a confession to make...

I was venturing around the workout section at Walmart and saw this $4 neoprene waist training wrap. I've never used any kind of waist trainer or wrap or even a belt to squat and dead lift. I've always been opposed, however I see everyone and their dog with all of these workout waist trainers that cost anywhere from $40 to $70, which I don't have, so I figured I'd give this little $4 wrap a shot. I was feeling super bloated, so what did I have to lose? Ummmmm apparently like 5 pounds a workout. I must say this little velcro neoprene thing makes you sweat so much! Even if it isn't actually doing anything, I feel "smaller" when I take it off because I've sweat off so much water weight! $4 well spent. Maybe it works, maybe not, but I love a good sweat, so I'm in! If you happen to be wandering around Walmart in the exercise section, maybe look at one!

Anywho, so as promised, my 3 favorite workouts of the week!

Upper Body: Landmine Press! This one is new to my routine, thanks to my boyfriend's recommendation, and its a shoulder crusher! Shoot for 3x10.

Lower Body: Lateral Swaying Lunges! Not gonna lie, I really didn't feel them much while I was doing them, but boyyyyy are my inner thighs sore! Stay at parallel and shift from one lateral lunge to the other. I use a barbell on my back and shoot for 3x12 each way.

Core: Good 'Ole Leg Lifts! You can literally superset these bad boys with anything and guarantee and great burn! I shoot for reps of 20.

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Transformation Tuesday: Once Upon an Eating Disorder

Happy Transformation Tuesday Fitfam!

Sometimes when we think about transformations in fitness, the first thing that comes to mind is weight loss; which is awesome!! Other times though, we forget about the transformation that have gone the opposite direction, with growth changes in both the body and mind. With that being said, here is my story.

💫Once Upon an Eating Disorder... 💫 

It has taken me a while to find a happy balance with my body. I've always been super self conscious and never satisfied or content with my own body, starting as early as high school. I let a silly number control my life. I started out how I looked on the left. I was 17 and suddenly became obsessed with the number on the scale, the number in my jeans; NUMBERS. If I wasn't under 120 pounds and a size 0, I wasn't happy. (May I remind you, I'm 5'10, and that is NOT a weight that is anywhere close to healthy for my height). My freshmen year of college, I was a collegiate athlete playing both indoor and beach volleyball, and was told by my strength and conditioning coach that at 5'10, 122 lbs and 19.5% body fat, that I was a "Skinny Fat Girl". If someone told me that now, I would laugh and shake it off. But being that fragile 18 year old in a new place for college, learning what it's like be away from home, in a controlling relationship and in the state of mind that I was already in, it wasn't something I could just shake off. That 18 year old girl heard "FAT" and that's when my anorexia turned into anorexia athletica. In the middle picture, you can see what my body had withered away to. My arms were twigs, my hipbones were protruding far past my actual stomach, you could count every bone in my sternum. Despite family and friend concerns, I convinced myself I wasn't hungry, barely ate anything if I was, and would run about 5 miles a day with a 1 hour workout a day. In my mind though, I was still FINE. I was always tired, I can't even explain how tired I was after a volleyball match. I was starving both literally and figuratively for self happiness. I hated so many things about my body. God forbid I walked past a mirror or scale because those were prime opportunities to tear myself apart. It was such a mind game. One day I woke up and just didn't want to feel like that anymore, and I finally made a decision to change. I got out of the controlling, unhealthy relationship I was in, (little did I know how big of a part that was playing in my negative self image), strengthened my relationship with God, and started to learn about fitness and nutrition. With my new self freedom and newly found knowledge in fitness and nutrition, I started my fitness journey. I put on 15 lbs, and found out how much better I feel with the proper nutrition and working out combination. A year later, I met the man of my dreams, who showed me what it's truly like to be loved and appreciated by your significant other, and through his love, taught me to love myself. So through God, my loving Godly boyfriend and family, and fitness, I have found a healthy balance! In the final picture above, a happy healthy girl, who has learned from her experience and grown from it. Fitness and health is a lifestyle change, not a fad or a temporary fix. ❤ 

Respect the process, enjoy the journey, and love yourself every step of the way ❤

Friday, January 23, 2015

Long time, no see.

Happy Friday FitFam!
Happy New Year too! Long time no see! ;) January 2015, wow! Time flies. A new year with new goals. So far I’ve launched my new website,, and for those of you following my IG, you’ve noticed that one of my 2015 goals is to make crazy glute gains! 2014 was all about that 6pack, 2015 is all about that bass. ;)

Speaking of 6 packs and glute gains, let me just show you the raw post-holiday damage. I can’t tell you the last time I saw my abs… Actually, maybe my show; good for me. But that’s okay! I’m happy and eating without restrictions or worries, and building a booty. Anyway, this is my January 1stphoto-op in all its glory. I’m the bloat queen. What do you do when you’re bloated and retaining water? Drink a bunch of water!! Whatttt??!  I can’t stress enough the importance of large water intakes. It flushes your system out! These were taken just a few days apart of drinking the right amount of water. I felt 100% better! Then it was back to consistent lifting.
Bloat vs hydrated 

Now here is where I currently stand with my build. SUPER stoked with my glute gains. I can honestly say, though I’ve slacked on some of my workouts, glutes were not one I slacked on, so that peach was/is being built by yours truly. The rest of my body looks quite a bit bigger than it really is, promise, due to a nice thick layer of fat on top of the muscle (it’s acceptable because it’s winter, right?); ie my she-hulk biceps. Maybe if I was as dedicated to the rest of me as I am my glutes, we wouldn’t be having this problem. New goal: glute dedication everywhere…. We’ll see.
Little bit of abs, Lotta bit of glutes 

She-hulk biceps and glute gains 

Anyway, back to my Friday thoughts. I think that for Friday’s every week, I’m going to post my favorite exercise for Upper body, Lower body and Core of that week. What do you think??
Let’s give it a shot!
So, for lower body this week, my favorite exercise would have to be…..
Weighted Hip Bridges, HEAVY. What a booty-burner! 3x10
For upper body I’d have to sayChin-Ups have been my saving grace to give any kind of shape to my arms. Do as many as you can without any assistance first, then burn out with assistance.
For Core I can say for sureWeighted Cable Crunches for the win! Forward and side to side, heavy. I’m so sore from those I can’t see straight. 3x12 each direction

Give these a shot, let me know what you think!

Monday, January 5, 2015

Website Launch!

Today brings some exciting news! Today I launched my website, Tay Rae's Fitness Craze!! 

New Year, new goals! I can't wait to see what 2015 has in store!

In the mean time, if you need help reaching your 2015 fitness goals, check of my new website!

Look forward to hearing from you!